I called it 'complicated'

today was a bless =)
I woke up at 7am and went to church at 9 am (with him)..It was a great starting...
he picked me up at 8.50 with his ninja ( it was a little surprise as I requested it last night, hehe)..
we were late, but its ok, I'm not familiar with the atmosphere, so i don't pay too much attention to the preach ( hehe). after the perjamuan kudus I put my arm around his shoulder while praying and he said I dis the same thing like his mother always do =)

then we went to central park with his brothers and sisters. they all very nice and friendly. we shared so many jokes and laugh together. it was very fun and i feel so happy..we continue to bakmi sakaw at PM...i don't believe we get so much closer. they are very talkative and interested in every stories we told.. mostly we talked about someone which 'euuuh', then we started to shared our school life....HAHA, big laugh for that,,in the way home, we talked much about family...overall it was fun and i got home at 10.20.. lucky me to have such a very nice friends like u guys..xoxo

but well, it just a small part from the day.. there still more, about us, my feeling, and i called it 'complicated'. I don't know what happened to me...i guess i change. there something in me which is not me ( don't know how to describe it).. I'm not into my school friends, I stay away from them, and sometimes feel uncomfortable, I have no idea whether its just because the holiday or my feeling....I really needs help to figure out what's wrong in me. I'm not in a good mood lately and my mood change like so many times a day ( I've made everybody confuse inc my pacar)..I get scared of lots of things and think negatively..OMG its just not me.. I hope it's just part of PMS! haha

and know, I really hope to meet him tomorrow..we rarely get our time together, just both of us.. every time we hang out, there must be another people..yet, I'm not saying that i feel annoyed, but yeah, I think we need little time together..hmmm maybe I have to wait for another Saturday, coz tomorrow is never happen =(

P.S: help me out!

xoxo