I'm not ready

Time flies so fast! I did notice that soon I'll be attending my first day at college..
I can' think right about it. reasons are coming out of my brain. its kinda disturbing..Feels like I want to stay like this. longer. And right now, I'm questioning myself with "if and how"...

well, what I scared the most is the TIME..I don't mind being a new student. I'm ok with the new suroundings. I'm fine with the homework things...hmmm everything gonna change soon. I can't meet him like i used to be.. I can't hanging out that often.. ='(

Idk why this become so f*ckin annoying.. It's funny how this thinking hurts me (even when I'm trying to prepare myself for the worst). The truth is simple. I make it complicated..I hate the thought of not being beside u as often as it used to be..

I want to stay like this...
I need to make things clearly, before its too late..
I hope that you can wait..
scared to death..
I guess I'm not ready for the big change..

God, please help me..
I don't want end up with fighting
or worst.....break up...

i try to enjoy the rest of the time..
I try to think positive
I try to make it works
I try to be ok..In fact, I just can't hide this whole things..

P.S: I'm falling for you. too deep..