short message

u never know how it feels..
it hurts so bad
I need someone to lean on
to cry and listen..


P.S i'm not happy
not even close to happy
i need to have fun
this is frustrating

YEAY

my boyfriend said that he likes to read my post!
so this is for you! AGAIN!

I don't know what happens to my boy..maybe his head bumped into something. and VOILA he change again! LOL. JK~
he said he wants to pay the days he missed <3
well, I miss him too!

he suppose to spend this week in Bali but he prefer to stay. why?? FOR ME!!
he want to be here on the 21!
so today, i went to his house to IDK! just visiting.. ( he fetched me at church after rehearsing)
we watched movie and talked about random things!
I laugh, he laugh <3
we're in the middle on joking, he pretend to be a buaya and catch me!
hmmm actually he didnt look like a buaya..HAHA
but,,,,,,,,suddenly his old friend called him!
I don't like her..She didn't do anything bad, but I kinda disturbed and jealous!
HAHA. Typical me!
I got pretty angry and sad! but yeah, that's him, can't keep me sad for long!
so we continue talking about stupid things
joking around and watched meet Dave! Funny one.LOL
hmm we plan to go to bandung someday. maybe next week! I can't wait to see our plan goes real! yeay. I'm so excited..

anyway, I kind of missing my friends too~
but this week is so busy with church stuff!
can't wait to see u guys
maybe next week

P.S: me want happy and I get it!

XOXO

Today is 21.06.10

after all doubts and questions in my mind...
you finally come up with an answer..

I've been missing you so much these days. u have no idea how hard it is for me to accept. U turn to be a different person. I miss the old you. but somehow I have to learn not to be egoist. I want to give u freedom. I understand that u need your friends. I know your condition at that time, and I have to give what u need; friends..

I went to PI today. our plan today is to spend our night for a dinner and a movie (letters to Juliet)..and fortunately we ended up watching 2 movies! here is the story =)

well, he picked me up at 5 something and we went straight away to PI. I'm so excited for today. I really wish to watch letters to Juliet. as we arrived, we went to XXI to but a ticket..it was disappointing to find out that the timing is not appropriate so we finally watched Toy Story 3 at 6.45. it was fun though..I love it..we came out from cinema wearing our perfect smile, walking toward Canteen. Surprisingly, my boyfriend came up with a brilliant idea " how if we watch letters to Juliet at 9.30 (it was 8.40)?" hmmm it nearly impossible coz we won't rushing while eating. we want to enjoy our dinner.. forget about the movie we ordered some foods and drinks and enjoyed our dinner. (I got a little upset coz we have no time to watch LTJ) apparently, we got 10 minutes before 10.30 and we done with our dinner!!! Shortly, we went again to XXI to bought another tickets to watch!! lucky us we got the ticket... YEAAY!! Im so damn happy!!

I really enjoyed the movie. it was really great (especially when u watch it with special one)
I love being around him this whole night
favourite quote of the day (from the movie): when it comes to love, it never too late. even when we have to wait.

Now I know that u love me. even when u don't say it or show it. but at least I know that deep down in your heart u miss me too. U love me too..I admit that people change (included you) and its the matter of who willing to accept who..and for this case, I'll accept every change u made..

P.S: happy sweet 5 months, beb =)

XOXO

I miss YOU

I miss my boyfriend
I miss our Saturday night
I miss our stupid conversation on the phone
I wish to spend some time ( little longer) with u

P.S: but, I won't ask for more

XOXO

a story about "my forever" and I

ABOUT HIM

he's cute and fun!
adorable and lovable
positive and wise
kind and nice
gentle and caring
patient and listen
naughty but submissive
I called him my forever

every time he tells joke, I laugh...
he's the type of boy i want to spend my days with
hmmmm, I love being around him..( I think everyone do) =)

ABOUT ME

pacar, sory to have this bad behaviour ='(

example 1 : he still have his ex's photos in his FB.. ( IDC if he don't erase it)
Actually its just a photo.. I don't need to worry about it..
but today, he got comment from his friends including his ex for the photo
and I start thinking; how if one day they get in touch again and CLBK..
hmmm, if that realy the case, I can't do nothing and stay like an idiot..
then he said to me that it is impossible for him to get CLBK (why not?!)
well, all I have to do is believe and put a trust in him
but in fact I still jealous and think abut it over n over
and asking the same question again and again
as the result my mood swing like crazy(mood change)

example 2: a days ago, I ate dinner at his house. we got a little problem and I cry
he kept on asking why I'm crying but I'm busy searching for a reason
and I came up with stupid reasons that made him tired...
I kept on saying I'm fine while he knew I'm not.. all I have to do is tell him
VOILA, problem solve!

well, this how girl's brain work.. its complicated and hard to understand..
my BF said that I have to stop thinking too much.. its worthless..and now I'm agree..
why i have to see something .. in a complicated way??
I'm trying to work on it.. let's hope he's not tired =D
but trust me problem isn't that bad. It was problem that made me LOVE him more..
the reason I want to change
the reason I want to stay
and LOVE u better

The thing is, I'm a happy girl to have u

P.S: especially for YOU, from me <3

XOXO

I smile because u exist

when life offer hundreds reason to cry, come up with millions reason to smile =)

sometimes there are parts of life that seems so hard to get through
but time will erase the pain and replace it with a new spirit...

I've been through a problem (a week ago)..i can solve it though..
but i keep on thinking negatively...
Now I realize. it's not about the problems that make it worst, but what's in our mind that creates reality...
so, thinking negatively would generate new problems

look at what I've got =)

Amazing God
Happy family


lovable friends and surroundings

my best gift <3

don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened

whoa! I have to chao now,, my best gift is waiting
for me =))
see u bloggers <3 style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">P.S: I smile because u r part of my life. you exist =)

XOXO