to dearest you ;

disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang, ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya..
disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya, ingatlah pada saat pertama kau jatuh cinta kepadanya
disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya, ingatlah saat terindah bersamanya
disaat kamu akan menduakannya, bayangkan jika dia selalu setia
disaat kamu akan membohonginya, ingatlah setiap kejujuran darinya
maka kamu akan merasakan arti kehadirannya
jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak disisimu, baru kamu menyadari betapa berarti kehadirannya..

it doesn't matter how many times we used to fight
It's about how we makes everything clear and move on
couples fight 'bout many things, but that's normal. what's not normal is when we fight and didn't find a way to make it right. there must be a way to make it work right?


P.S: don't be sad boy. love you MOST =D

=')

• Boy: You know what?
• Girl: What?
• Boy: Next time i see you, don't wear that skirt again, it's too revealing
• Girl: Why? I thought you loved that skirt
• Boy: Next time, wear something that reaches to your ankles
• Girl: Ok whatever
• Boy: A dress that reaches to your ankles.. and wear long white gloves that reach to your elbows
• Girl: What?
• Boy: Trust me
• Girl: What are you trying to do? Hide me from everyone?
• Boy: Do up your hair as well real pretty
• Girl: Are You listening to what i'm saying? You're so conservative, don't choke me like this... Are you kidding me?
• Boy: I'm dead serious.
• Girl: You know i dont like guys who boss me around
• Boy: ... Wear a veil
• Girl: ... what?
• Boy: Wear this ring too
• Girl: ....
• Boy: Marry Me

I get this from my friend's blog =)
I love it <3

happy sunday!

just got home and feel grateful for what happened today =)
I went to Sency with my BF and his family. usual things to do. billiard. dinner..
but there's something special about today. I think I get closer with his family..

I went to fish spa with the girls. laughing loudly coz it tickles.
bought Bk and eat them at padang restaurant.. sharing their childhood moments. It was so fun

what's great about having family is that u'll never feel alone. and I'm happy to be part of them =)

about my school life, i don't feel close to anyone yet. they are all friendly but I don't think I can find another better friends like them (highschool).just friend would be enough. assignments are getting worst each week. I need to be more organize. I don't want to end up my weekends doing homeworks. =.=

P.s HAPPY 10 months! =*

Happy birtday to ya!

Today is my boyfriend's birthday! (happy birthday dear)
I bought him shoes for the present and a cake.
I'm looking for a size 42 but it appear that they don't have stock for it. So I bought 1 size bigger =.= I'm worry that it won't fit, but luckily It fit him!! yeay!! =D

I came to his house at 11.30 to surprise him. he arrived so fast, so I didn't have much time to prepare..
it look likes that his brother has bought something for him too =) so it would be a double surprise =)
but it went well. Thanks to his family =D
It was a great night afterall. He likes my gift and his brother's

LOVE YA BOI!!
have a blast

P.S: tomorrow gonna be fun XD

XOXO

HELLO AGAIN!

Time to tell ya 'bout my campus life..
long time no blog. I don't feel like writing =(
I got some close friends, but I'm not open yet to them (which is idk how to start curhat w/ them)
there are bitches (for sure). I love almost every subject except for marketing and textile. SLEEPY TO THE MAX.my personality change a lot. even I don't know me..I guess I've been through a frustrating weeks =(

my kos sucks! experienced blackout for 12 hours (WTF?!) with NO WATER! this happened for 2 days. 2 days without light and water! aaaargh. My mood is in the lowest level. I get so tired and sleepy. Snap to everyone that try to talk to me..hard day..Fortunately I get 2 days off from school. YEAY. change my mood =D =D

In friday I have to go back to school to attend the seniors jury day. They will presents their works to some teachers. And I'm going to be one of the model =) If my designer's design is in, I'll come back again on saturday and sunday to join the workshop.. it must be tiring. I wish i have more holiday. I need it..

I need you to say "I miss u"

U are part of my life

I miss my classmates so much!!

I miss my P, T, N...
I miss the girls
I miss everything

Gak ada yang tiduran d paha g lg terus minta dielus2 kepalanya sampe bobo.. I miss my Talitha
gak ada yang deg2an lg takud remed.. I miss my Praisca
gak ada yang bisa ngasih advice dgn bijaksana.. I miss my Nesya
gak ada yang bisa diajak gila sambil ketawa2 gara2 ada ide busuk. I miss my Felia
gak ada yang bisa cerita panjang lebar gak ada bosennya.. I miss my Natalia
Gak ada yang bisa diajakin party2 n heboh2an.. I miss my Amanda
gak ada yang bawain makanan yang banyak buat temen2nya.. I miss my Martha

There are none like you guys

quotes

Life is short. Break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.

“Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.”

I want u

still.. I want to stay like this. even when i have to go..
I hate the tears.
I just want this to last.
i want u

Solution

I've been posting about my Bf like sooo many!
I'm not into a good relationship in the past. I guess my exs are just not suitable..yeah some of them are good, but not as good as my new year guy...That's why I fright to lost someone like him. rare species. LOL.

This morning I posted about what's going in my mind..and this evening I got a solution. from my boyfriend.

"2 people loving each other in the moment. is that not enough? why don't we just enjoy what is there"

I wonder why boys are so simple and girls making it complicated. The things that I think all day is not a serious matter. it just a thought that probably don't turn to be real..hmm it doens't help me completely, but this makes me realize that there's nothing to be fear..

just try to be whoever u are minus the bad thoughts.oz bad things happen in life, and those make u stronger. don't even bother about the future coz it always changes- by N

thankyou very much for the advices. lucky to have someone that understand u very much. giving support and ready for me..

P.S: I'm still worrying about future. but not too much.I think its normal. hehe

I'm not ready

Time flies so fast! I did notice that soon I'll be attending my first day at college..
I can' think right about it. reasons are coming out of my brain. its kinda disturbing..Feels like I want to stay like this. longer. And right now, I'm questioning myself with "if and how"...

well, what I scared the most is the TIME..I don't mind being a new student. I'm ok with the new suroundings. I'm fine with the homework things...hmmm everything gonna change soon. I can't meet him like i used to be.. I can't hanging out that often.. ='(

Idk why this become so f*ckin annoying.. It's funny how this thinking hurts me (even when I'm trying to prepare myself for the worst). The truth is simple. I make it complicated..I hate the thought of not being beside u as often as it used to be..

I want to stay like this...
I need to make things clearly, before its too late..
I hope that you can wait..
scared to death..
I guess I'm not ready for the big change..

God, please help me..
I don't want end up with fighting
or worst.....break up...

i try to enjoy the rest of the time..
I try to think positive
I try to make it works
I try to be ok..In fact, I just can't hide this whole things..

P.S: I'm falling for you. too deep..

Weekend

hey again..
actually there are many things that I would share..I keep on opening the blog but I don't feel like writing =( too lazy to write. nyehehe!

I spent this weekend with my boyfriend. having dinner on Saturday and hanging out at PS. It was a great weekend=)

On Saturday we planned to eat at Peppenero but ended having dinner at Oakwood, Penang Bistro. It was fun though. the place isn't too crowded, so we can hear the live music clearly...and today we went to PS. just a regular routines every Sunday. Gathering time. with my boyfriend's big family. I feel like I'm part of them =) first we went to Sogo. looking for a new watch for my Y, but it seems that he's not interested in any. so we went to Zara. He beg for a black leather jacket. It's good and fits him perfectly, but a little expensive ( I wanted to buy it for his birthday present. TAPI DIA TERLALU NGEBET! huh...


P.S: good days good times =))

XOXO

Smile =)

Oh you know, you know, you know Id never ask you to change. If perfect is what you're searching for. Then just stay the same. So don't even bother asking If you look okay. You know I say..." When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are . And when you smile, The whole world stops and stares for awhile Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are"

Relationship

how to define relationship? some people said 2 person that have much similarities.

me and him
fighting but loving
me crying, he gives hug
me thinking too much, he is wise
me so talkative, he listen
we argue about stuffs
we teasing
we faced many probs
me + him = did not have much in common
difference unite us..
we faced problems. they pops anytime. but we manage to ended it ASAP.

but overall that's how relationship work two people sharing every detail of life it's about not giving up and fighting for each other. it's how we make things work

this is Ci Gladys and Ko Eko , Yosua, and me. Me want a relationship like Cici and Koko. good luck for us and them.

P.S: Great boyfriend. Great me. Happy us.

XOXO

battle drift

Hello readers :*
how was your weekend?
mine was super good. mihihi =}

my boyfriend asked me to go with him on Sunday to watch the Achilles Drift Battle at PRJ..
so this is the Indonesia International Motor show (IIMS) event which is held once a year.. there are some exhibition about sport cars and bikes.its crowded there but yeah we had a lot of fun from the morning it start till the end...

I went there with a very bad mood! I don't really attracted to the event. I don't like the heat, sweat, dust, smoke, crowded! but then I think again,, " dy aja mau temenin g belanja, ntn film drama, anter jemput g. knp skg g gak mau nemenin dy???" we started with a little fight. me upset, he upset. but not after the show began!!

the Drift battle was the main event there, since it was the final show ( 3rd show). there are 16 finalists that really expert! they brought along their own car which is supported by the Achilles. each of it have their own uniqueness and skills. began with the ceremony where the drivers and their cars came into the arena and sang the national song..hmm for all of the 16, there are 2 cars that I like...hmmm I'M SUPER EXCITED!!!

and yeah, they are Armadio and Herwawan (iceman) my favourites. well they both use nissan silvia but from different year. Armadio used the newer version. I adore them! the made my eyes widely open, my heart beat so fast, my camera on, i stand up just to see their turn! SO AMAZING. hmm i love Alinka ( the only girl contestant and won the 2009 battle) and Yaser =))

before the ceremony began. the yellow one belongs to Hermawan

This is belongs to Armadio

Yaser's

hmm That was fun! better than going from mall to mall every weekend...Now, I crave to watch some more =)

XOXO

I've been through an irritating conversation with someone =.=
he is so pathetic. blah!
hope this f*ckin jerk vanish from the earth! what a useless creature. or at least disappear from my life!

hello today ~

I spent my day with my boyfriend
we went nowhere. we stayed at home doing our happy hour things together =)
this makes me glad.. we're not fighting anymore..

I fight with him yesterday. not a serious matter..
but yeah, we ended it..
anyhow it gives lesson to us. for me especially.
to appreciate people. to put my ego down. to be more sensitive
to show a good attitude. to love each other better..
hoping that this kind of thing won't happen again
hoping that everything comes in the right way

when I asked God for a good boyfriend, He picks YOU
this is so perfect

P.S: gonna be a good girlfriend too

XOXO

karma rolls and u better watch your steps!

ternyata karma itu bener2 ada dan datang dalam bentuk berbeda. gak selalu berbalik sama dengan kejadian yang lu alami.
misalnya lu kecolongan hape, dan pencurinya akan kehilangan hape jg..mungkin dia akan kehilangan barang yang lain atau bisa aja kehilangan seseorang..

karma gak cuma berlaku untuk hal besar kaya diatas. bisa juga berbalik ke lu kalo lu suka bohong, ngomongin orang, munafik, krn pada akhirnya lu pasti ngerasain itu semua. Gak tau kapan, dimana, sama siapa. dan g rasa gak ada 1 orang pun yang mau masa depannya jadi jelek gara2 lu berlaku jelek sama orang lain..

buat LU dan andai g bisa ngomong langsung ke lu..
mungin ini karma lu karena lu jahat ke semua orang! makanya gak ada seorang pun yang mau bantu lu.. lu udah banyak buang2 kepercayaan orang, persahabatan lu juga gak tulus, lu banyak ngecewain temen2 lu. g ngerti lu manusia yang gak luput dari berbuat jahat, tp msa lu gak tau mana yang baik n nggak?!
g kasian sama lu. g usaha buat bantu lu.. tp gak ada yang dukung g buat ngebantuin lu..
g harap lu bisa berubah dan banyak berbuat baik sama orang lain...

akhir2 ini g kaya dihantui banyak pikiran.
yang kalo gak cepat2 di share akan terlupakan..


P.S: pusing dan stress..

Thankyou

My day was great!
I went to his house in the morning anddd he wasn't awake yet! so I woke him up!!

This is the card that I made for him..I always made a card every month for him =) he said it makes him happy and I'm glad to heard that..

we spent around 6 hours at his house before going to Puri. yeah, we planned to buy a present for his friend..but we ended up watching a movie, having dinner, and no present at all =D
so, thx for the great day..

hmm this is the first time I watched premiere, and I'm so thankful to him for giving this chance! actually we decided to watch Inception, but he is too lazy to queue. HAHA. fortunately the movie isn't bad =)

today makes me think that the time I used to fight for him is worth the pain..
I realize that there are no happy ending , but its a choice and i'll make it happen..
I learn that a word sorry won't change the situation. It's us who have to make a difference..
I know that regret always comes too late, but there's no point of regretting the regrets..

he is a good boyfriend
he is special
my mom likes him, so do my father
and..
I thanks God for sending him to me

P.S: be thanful for what u've got~
Yosua, I love you! MOST

xoxo

farewell

"It is by chance we met . . .
By choice we became friends."

"Tears may come and go,
But there's one thing I know.
All my life you're a friend of mine.
You can depend on me.
I'll be fine...
'Cause you're a friend of mine."
-Clarence Clemens

enough for the birthday celebration party. Movin to a farewell ='(

I'm happy and sad at the same time

looking at my friend going aboard one by one

I've been part of their life too, playing everyday at school, eating lunch together..

what a memory that I'll never forget..

Dwi. A guy who is strong willing. have a million jokes to tell. Unpredictable. loyal friend. Good luck at Brisbane! Miss ya!

Felia. This girl is insane! just like me! my partner in crime. doing stupidity together. LOLing everywhere. crazy in school..I won't forget u! Good luck at Singapore. Love n miss ya!!

Arno. He is hilarious! smiling never stop! HAHA. hard worker, never give up, helpful .gonna miss your smiley face =) Good luck at Bali!

Natalia. a very attractive girl. cheerful. talkative. positive influence. yes, She is very nice and kind. a friend that everybody is looking for..oooooh I'll miss your stories =( good luck at SF! wish u luck! love and miss ya!

eeeeergh I don't like farewell

I hate the goodbye

I hate the tears

BUT, I love to see u smile

I love to see u happy

open your new chapter and catch your dreams

say hello to a new life!

never look back and regret your past.

new beginning, new spirit!

GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY

P.S: A farewell isn't that bad..

XOXO

a little curhat from me

sebenernya apa sih artinya best friend?? temen yg selalu adakah buat kita?

Gak juga kayana.dy gak mgkin ada waktu malem2 kita nangis d kamar gara2 urusan pacar..
mereka gak bisa 24 hour available untuk nemenin kita yg lagi sedih or down..

..TAPI..

mereka emank gak selalu ada buat kita tapi sahabat SIAP dengerin cerita kita kapan pun
mereka pasti GAK PERNAH melewatkan kita untuk diajak pergi
mereka BERUSAHA supaya kita tetap bersahabat
mereka gak pernah ngbohongin kita u/ apa pun

hmmm kira2 gitu sih pengartian g tentang sahabat..g bukan anak kecil lg yg suka ribut2 sama sahabat dan mempermasalahkan kalo point2 diatas gak berjalan mulus. g jg belajar buat gak nyalahin keadaan sama orang lain..I think i start to loss my best friends. mungkin karena g yang terlalu sibuk dan mereka yang punya kesibukan masing2. atau g yang semakin menjauh..apa mgkin g yg kurang approach mereka or idk =(
cape pikiran..

I love my friends

Hello again~
today I went to hmmm .....NOWHERE,,,
hehe

but I got a little surprise in the evening
my friend came to my house
she just get back from a holiday =)
so she came to visit me I guess, or maybe she miss our stupid jokes! HAHA
well I miss her too
I'm so excited to hear her story..

we spent time 2 hours sharing
about friends, boyfriend, relationship, sex, ariel-lunamaya (HAHA) , religion, ghost, vacation.
what else? hmm planning to go shopping together. perhaps to Mangga Dua =D
gossiping people we don't like..
what a night!
love her so much..
sad to know that she's only available during weekend =( she move to a rental house with her boyfriend, near her campuss..

btw I have to buy a present for her. she's my best friend and its her birthday! so gotta pick the best present for her too =)) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

P.S: i love my friends

XOXO

yesterday.today.tomorrow

I WON'T FORGET TODAY
it's funny how my mood changing everytime
luckily i have u
patience enough for me =)
listening to all my silly jokes and stories
now I'm happy (please siapa pun jangan ngerusak mood g x ini)

***

I'm happy to met u in the morning while u r asleep..
I see peace in your face
I'm waiting beside u, waiting for you to realize that I've been watching u
gently touching your hair and kiss your forehead till u finally awake
u looks confuse. U aren't sure that it was me. but soon u told me to sleep beside u..
he wrap his hands around me
and u r asleep for another 2 hours
watching u sleep was fun! XD

Now i'm listening to our song
my sense told me that u r the best
someone who deserves the title "hero"

P.S: sorry for yesterday.but.
tq for the very great day..
tomorrow gonna be extra fun

LOVE YOU MORE

XOXO

short message

u never know how it feels..
it hurts so bad
I need someone to lean on
to cry and listen..


P.S i'm not happy
not even close to happy
i need to have fun
this is frustrating

YEAY

my boyfriend said that he likes to read my post!
so this is for you! AGAIN!

I don't know what happens to my boy..maybe his head bumped into something. and VOILA he change again! LOL. JK~
he said he wants to pay the days he missed <3
well, I miss him too!

he suppose to spend this week in Bali but he prefer to stay. why?? FOR ME!!
he want to be here on the 21!
so today, i went to his house to IDK! just visiting.. ( he fetched me at church after rehearsing)
we watched movie and talked about random things!
I laugh, he laugh <3
we're in the middle on joking, he pretend to be a buaya and catch me!
hmmm actually he didnt look like a buaya..HAHA
but,,,,,,,,suddenly his old friend called him!
I don't like her..She didn't do anything bad, but I kinda disturbed and jealous!
HAHA. Typical me!
I got pretty angry and sad! but yeah, that's him, can't keep me sad for long!
so we continue talking about stupid things
joking around and watched meet Dave! Funny one.LOL
hmm we plan to go to bandung someday. maybe next week! I can't wait to see our plan goes real! yeay. I'm so excited..

anyway, I kind of missing my friends too~
but this week is so busy with church stuff!
can't wait to see u guys
maybe next week

P.S: me want happy and I get it!

XOXO

Today is 21.06.10

after all doubts and questions in my mind...
you finally come up with an answer..

I've been missing you so much these days. u have no idea how hard it is for me to accept. U turn to be a different person. I miss the old you. but somehow I have to learn not to be egoist. I want to give u freedom. I understand that u need your friends. I know your condition at that time, and I have to give what u need; friends..

I went to PI today. our plan today is to spend our night for a dinner and a movie (letters to Juliet)..and fortunately we ended up watching 2 movies! here is the story =)

well, he picked me up at 5 something and we went straight away to PI. I'm so excited for today. I really wish to watch letters to Juliet. as we arrived, we went to XXI to but a ticket..it was disappointing to find out that the timing is not appropriate so we finally watched Toy Story 3 at 6.45. it was fun though..I love it..we came out from cinema wearing our perfect smile, walking toward Canteen. Surprisingly, my boyfriend came up with a brilliant idea " how if we watch letters to Juliet at 9.30 (it was 8.40)?" hmmm it nearly impossible coz we won't rushing while eating. we want to enjoy our dinner.. forget about the movie we ordered some foods and drinks and enjoyed our dinner. (I got a little upset coz we have no time to watch LTJ) apparently, we got 10 minutes before 10.30 and we done with our dinner!!! Shortly, we went again to XXI to bought another tickets to watch!! lucky us we got the ticket... YEAAY!! Im so damn happy!!

I really enjoyed the movie. it was really great (especially when u watch it with special one)
I love being around him this whole night
favourite quote of the day (from the movie): when it comes to love, it never too late. even when we have to wait.

Now I know that u love me. even when u don't say it or show it. but at least I know that deep down in your heart u miss me too. U love me too..I admit that people change (included you) and its the matter of who willing to accept who..and for this case, I'll accept every change u made..

P.S: happy sweet 5 months, beb =)

XOXO